Life Struggles

^i^ My Angel Jacob – 2 mnths in Heaven ^i^

Definition of Fear (feer) n.
1.a distressing emotion aroused by impending danger, evil, pain, etc., whether the threat is real or imagined; the feeling or condition of being afraid: living in fear.
2.concern or anxiety; solicitude: a fear for someone's safety.
3.that which causes a feeling of being afraid; that of which a person is afraid: Cancer is a common fear.
This does not even come close to describe the fear of when a parent looses grasp on reality and looses their grip on their child who they know is dying. The fear of feeling powerless IS one of the BIGGIEST things us parents struggle with, when it comes to our children.
Every night I go to bed and every morning I wake up knowing I have to have the courage to move forward to an uncertain future, with the one certainty; it will be with out my precious Jacob. Life pretty much has resumed, it must, staying busy, going to work, and for me loosing my insanity trying to get Jacob’s scrapbooks and other little projects done. Jacob’s Memory’s are all I have left, and perfect they must be. I often think maybe it would be better if we were all insane, no really, then we would not stress over half the things we stress over. LOL I know we all have hit a wall at one time or another and just said “FORGET IT ALL” it is a this point you sigh and think everything through. Would life be less stressful or complicated if we all just ran and then what would be left for Family & friends to deal with?? We all know what needs to be done maybe its instinct that kicks in and it is that moment in life that we hit that wall and take God in and become that pillar of strength the very thread that will keep everything together and you will then move forward remembering you are not the only one living in this sometimes chaotic world.

Thursday, 2010April 29th 2010
5:30 to 8:30pm we will be holding a fundraising event at Shakeys in Temecula on Ynez. All you have to do is go eat there or order to go and drop your receipt in the box. Shakeys will donate 25% of all purchases to our team. So take the night off and support a great cause.
Shakeys Pizza, 26479 Ynez Rd, #C, Temecula, CA 92591
Phone (951)719-1145
HELP US HAVE A WONDERFUL TURNOUT Hope to see you there!!!
Thank You for your support!
Virginia


Sat. May 1st, 2010
The Barstool Rodeo @ Relay for Life Orange
Location:Orange High School
Time:5:30PM Saturday, May 1st
http://www.facebook.com/home.php?#!/event.php?eid=401994180201&ref=mf




Sat. May 8th, 2010
5th Annual Dinner Auction & “All In” Texas Hold’ Em Fun
This event will benefit Megan's Wing's Patient Aid Program which provides crucial aid to families in our community struggling to survive financially while supporting their critically ill child.
May, 8 2010
6:00 PM-midnight
Double Tree Hotel in Claremont, CA
Semi -Casual Attire
http://www.meganswings.org/spv-36.aspx
Please register by May 3rd, 2010

Please keep in your prayer, these kids and their families are in need of it
http://www.caringbridge.org/visit/taylormorgan
http://www.caringbridge.org/visit/elizabethpitts

Thank You for the continued prayers!
Melisa
melisncal@aol.com