Monday, May 31, 2010

Keeping busy

^i^ My Angel Jacob – 3 months in Heaven ^i^

Hope every one has a safe Memorial Day!!

This year started off the worse way possible, really, what is worse than loosing your child to cancer? I would have given up everything if given the choice, but life does not work that way.

I looked at the calendar and thought, wow, where is this year going??
Everything I am doing for fundraising is all in Jacobs Memory, this is how I look at it, that is what is keeping me so busy.
I know first had what road we traveled, what Jacob went through & what we went through as a family. I want to help put a stop to cancer that seems to be slowly taking over; we just need to wipe it out of EXTINCTION!

So with that said, those of you that are in the area join us at Cold Stone :o)

Thank You,

Tuesday, May 25, 2010


^i^ My Angel Jacob – 3 months in Heaven ^i^

Cancer just leave

Two young to be
tormented by such a demean,
we ask,
we screamed,
we cried,
we pleaded,
we even poisoned!
But time after time you returned.
What does it take to rid you from our
little ones bodies?
With each time you return
you break down their little bodies
just a little more each time.
Why can’t you just leave,
just die after time.
We screamed,
we cried,
we pleaded,
we even poisoned,
Cancer why don’t you just leave,
leave our children be,
this is not the way it should be.
It should be the CANCER that leaves,

By Melisa A. Samaniego May 2010

Wednesday, May 19, 2010

Making a difference

^i^ My Angel Jacob – 3 months in Heaven ^i^

It’s so true that it is a FACT of life that Jacob is no longer with us and that it is a BATTLE EVERDAY to coup with that very fact. Back in 2006 when Jacob was first diagnosed, it was that fact that I had to deal with, my child has CANCER, NO, HOW & WHY. It just wowed me to see a whole new world open in front of me. I was introduced to patients and their families, Doctors, Nurses, medications/chemo’s, side effects, spinals, bone marrow aspirations, IV’s, ports, LIVING IN YOUR ONW PERSONAL BUBBLE watching the world outside pass you by and so much more. Also a new language, at first it was…………………..HUH……………………..?!?!? In a short time and the internet I was a pro, I even found myself helping other families, even with everything so new to me & trying to deal with our own demeans I still stepped out to help the other families that had that scared lost look. Each time I saw that it just tore at me. I think it was easier for me to help others because I had a VERY POSSITIVE outlook on what we were going through, Jacob WAS going to be ok, we WERE going to get through this. Sure I had a melt down when we told that Jacob had cancer, and even now it was all a blur I WILL NEVER FORGET THAT. Just like I WILL NEVER FORGET the last breath Jacob took in my arms from the very cancer I said would not take my son!!!! Two things I could do, HATE LIFE or TRY TO TURN MY EXPERIENCE to something POSITVE. Yes at times that is hard to do, but I do try to extend my hand every day to those lost families. Knowing firsthand what they are going through from point A to Z of course makes it easier to be there for other families and I could never be accused of not knowing what the heck I am talking about :0/
I was once told by one of the nurses the reason Jacob always wore a smile was because no matter what I always walked in wearing a smile and a HI. Sometimes they wondered what was really hiding behind my smile. This little quote was given to me, I thought this is so true.

Thank You for the continued prayers!

Sunday, May 16, 2010


^i^ My Angel Jacob – 3mnths in Heaven ^i^

I hope every one had a good Mothers Day and spent some special time with your children. I woke up Sunday morning to Jacob calling my name, I don’t even remember dreaming about him, all I know I woke up because I heard him calling mommy mommy, what a way to wake up on Mothers Day.

Every year, for four years now I have been fundraising for the Leukemia Society. Always having a team in honor of Jacob called Jacob’s HOPE, well of course this year it is In Memory of, that just breaks my heart. My team this year is Jacob, Always in Our Hearts. I would love it if people can help any way possible or even join the team to walk with us on Oct 16th.
Thank You for your continued prayers!

Sunday, May 9, 2010


^i^ My Angel Jacob – 3 mnths in Heaven ^i^


A Mother's love is something
that no on can explain,
It is made of deep devotion
and of sacrifice and pain,
It is endless and unselfish
and enduring come what may
For nothing can destroy it
or take that love away . . .
It is patient and forgiving
when all others are forsaking,
And it never fails or falters
even though the heart is breaking . . .
It believes beyond believing
when the world around condemns,
And it glows with all the beauty
of the rarest, brightest gems . . .
It is far beyond defining,
it defies all explanation,
And it still remains a secret
like the mysteries of creation . . .
A many splendoured miracle
man cannot understand
And another wondrous evidence
of God's tender guiding hand.
~Helen Steiner Rice~