Friday, October 28, 2011

Thoughts from the heart!!

I always knew I wanted to have a family of my own, 2 kids would be great for me if we were able. When thinking about having children of my own by no means did I think having Jacob would change my like so drastically. I never thought of myself having a void in my life, until I had Jacob. He filled that void, the void I did not realize I had, he became my everything. Li...fe was so good, we were enjoying the family life, Jacob was 3 and acting like such a big boy, we were enjoying every part of being parents. In July 2006, 3 ½ months before his 4th birthday life came to a crashing halt when our one and only son was diagnosed with cancer. We knew we had a long and sometimes difficult road ahead of us, but there was no other option but to FIGHT!! Fight is what we did for 3 ½ years until it came down to the point when you look at your child laying there and you just know it is time to say good bye, Jacob was done fighting so as a parent I had to accept that and let him know it is ok to let go and that I LOVE HIM SO MUCH. That transition was the hardest, we have fought for so long, I just couldn’t give up, but I see now I was not giving up, it was time. In the back of my mind I always knew I wanted to have one more child, but with the life style we were living in and out of the hospital with Jacob, it was not a good time. After Jacob’s Passing I knew I did not want another child, (at least I thought I knew) I was so afraid of the loss of a child, the pain SCARED ME FOR LIFE, I did not want to go through that again. Who was I Kidding!!!! About 9 months had past and the desire of wanting to be a Mom, a Mom with so many meanings, a mom was who I was, I could not deny those feelings. So it was time to start tiring, we can give Jacob a little Brother or Sister he can watch over. We got pregnant first try and I miscarried; now it has been over 7 months and we are having no luck. I keep thinking its our age or maybe it is not in our cards to be parents again. But sorry I am not so willing to accept that yet, I don’t feel my age and I want to have another little one, so continue to try is all we can do. Your Prayers would be so appreciated. For all of you that did not know we were even trying, we are :o)

Monday, October 17, 2011

*This Sunday, Blood Drive and/or Farmer Boys Fundraiser in Memory of Jacob Honoring his Birthday Oct 23rd, 10am - 4pm http://www.facebook.com/events/#!/event.php?eid=223565147688367
Please bring the flyer for Farmer Boys :o) *Light the night Walk for Leukemia & Lymphoma Society, Oct 22nd 2011 Are you able to walk with us or make a donation, that would be great http://pages.lightthenight.org/ocie/InlandEm11/JacobAlwaysInOurHearts Thank You for your prayers & support! Melisa

Wednesday, October 12, 2011

QUILT FOR CANCER

^i^ My Angel Jacob – 1 year in Heaven ^i^ Remembering what would have been Jacob’s 9th Birthday on Oct 7th, it is really hard to think how things would be. It is always really hard as we approach Fall and into the New Year. Jacob Always In Our Hearts! *Quilt for CANCER Help support CHILDHOOD CANCER!!! We are collecting 7 inch squares of fabric that we will make into a quilt. **MAKE SURE YOU HAVE ½ inch blank border around you fabric square** You can make it In Memory of or In Honor of or just show your support, you can use iron on’s, embroidery or fabric paint, you can write a message or just put your name, anything you want you can do! Please send to: Melisa Ogaz Samaniego 1225 S. Bon View Ave, Ontario, CA 91761 Deadline will be January 11th, 2012 We will be auctioning off the Quilt with 100% of the proceeds going to support our children with CANCER!!! Feel free to pass this along, WE NEED YOUR HELP & YOUR SUPPORT, THANK YOU!! http://www.facebook.com/#!/event.php?eid=291016880910599 *Right around the corner we have an Blood Drive and/or Farmer Boys Fundraiser in Memory of Jacob Honoring his Birthday Oct 23rd, 10am - 4pm http://www.facebook.com/events/#!/event.php?eid=223565147688367 *Light the night Walk for Leukemia & Lymphoma Society, Oct 22nd 2011 Are you able to walk with us or make a donation, that would be great http://pages.lightthenight.org/ocie/InlandEm11/JacobAlwaysInOurHearts Thank You for your prayers & support! Melisa